My Beloved.

A constant source of praise for me lately has been the song "My Beloved" by Kari Jobe. It is just sooo good to my soul. And although it's a source of praise for me,  it's actually sung from the perspective of Jesus and He is singing over the listener... over me.

I've been listening to it for weeks but today when I heard it I just fell apart. As I listened, I imagined everything as though I were alone with Jesus, clinging to every word he said to me but also holding onto everything that I think has value in this life. He tells me I'm beautiful, unstained, His child, His bride, to come and just be with Him. But when the part came that said, "cast all your cares down at My feet, come and find your rest in Me" I pictured myself finally laying everything down.

my books
my computer
my crafts
my ideas
my busyness

my children...
my children.

Any time I think of laying my children down at His feet I just clutch them closer to my chest because I'm afraid He'll take them away from me. But this time, as I stood there with Jesus, I laid my children down. It makes me tear up as I write this because as I laid all of this down at His feet, none of it mattered to Him except my children. He didn't even glance at all the material things I laid down, but my children, He picked up and carried for me. And then He took my hand and we walked, together, with my children, His children, in His arms.

Ohhh! My God is so good to me!! I just cannot get enough of this! Enough of Him. And as much as my soul aches for Him, I hate myself for getting so distracted that He becomes distant. Every day it is a struggle to keep Him in the forefront of my all. And for whatever reason, I allow the enemy to sneak in and convince me that what God has for me is something other than hope, and love, and peace, and ALL things SO GOOD.

I know (because I'm a Mama) that it will always be an every day decision to hand my children over to God, but I am so thankful that He gave me this "vision" today, of picking up my children and, not taking them away, but helping me bare the burden of mothering them and guiding me in the Way to lead them. Thank God for being THE Father, THE Guide, THE Teacher, THE ultimate source of Knowledge. I am so grateful that He keeps waiting for me.

My Beloved

You're My beloved, you're My bride.
To sing over you is My delight.
Come away with Me, My love.

Under My mercy come and wait.
'Til we are standing face to face.
I see no stain on you, My child.

You're beautiful to Me.
So beautiful to Me.

I sing over you My song of peace.
Cast all your cares down at My feet.
Come and find your rest in Me.

I'll breathe My life inside of you.
I'll bare you up on eagles' wings.
And hide you in the shadow of My strength.

I'll take you to My quiet waters.
I'll restore your soul.
Come rest in Me and be made whole.

You're My beloved, you're My child.
To sing over you is My delight.
Come away with Me, My love.